Did I have moments where I felt like everything was falling apart? YES! I even felt sometimes that I would not be able to see the light, it took a lot of hard work and motivation, but its left me feeling on the last day of the year 2017 that I have accomplished so much in the last 12 months and I want to share my thoughts with you!
What I learnt in 2017:
1.Be the risk taker! Taking chances and risks only allow you to grow and flourish into a bigger and better version of yourself. I started off my 2017 year in London, taking risk after risk, and came back to Sydney 7 months later with more confidence in the work I do and how to do what I do better. I learnt how to set up a website on my own, hosted, promoted, catered and baked for a sold out plant based event for 50 people, and scored an awesome job starting in the new year! I felt like for the first time in my life I had accomplished the goals I set for myself.
2.Be less trusting! As if I hadn’t learnt my lesson in the last 26 years of life, but this year and the last has sold me on not trusting people. Giving has always been in my nature, and some people might think I am naïve but now I finally see the bigger picture and without sounding negative, I now understand how everyone is out for themselves, with their own agenda, and I wont let that change my trusting nature, but I am definitely going to focus on making better choices from the lessons I've learnt from being disappointed by others.
3.Rid that negative energy! From the mishap that 2016 was, I focused on cutting out all the negative energy that I had carried for a while, and focused on self care and love, and if I had a low tolerance to peoples BS, I would say its been magnified times 50! I look at so many people around me who have grown around cultural limitations, and not being able to fulfil what they truly wish to do out of fear of what people might think and say, but its safe to say IDGAF about that anymore, and I feel so free! If this is something holding you back, make 2018 the year of FREEDOM! 2017 was my year of freedom, I knew how much I had grown into a woman, and if I didn't respect myself the way that I do I would have never left my toxic situation. We all go through hard times, its how we come out of it that really proves our strength and motivation to live the best possible life we thrive for.
4.Appreciate those who have your back! Sometimes we can feel entitled to the support and care of those who love us unconditionally and we forget to thank them, and love them 10 times more for the love they provide us, and that’s something I am learning to not push away those who care the most, while trying to please and prove my self to those who in reality don’t matter!
5.JUST DO IT! Less talk more action, I have always been a go getter, an explorer and a dreamer. I have finally signed up to train to volunteer for a crisis helpline (5 years in the talking process), I have enrolled to study my second degree at uni (3 years in the talking process), 2018 is the year I want to achieve goals, and focus on self development, and use my time more wisely, no more wasting time on people & things that don’t matter!
6.In 2017 the theme was self development! I appreciated the time I spent this year to develop and grow into more of the person I want to be, it’s the only time in my life where I have been single for the longest time, spent a lot of time alone reflecting, and spending time doing the things I like to do (eat, sleep, bake, cook). 2017 was a time were I was most honest with my self, and not feeling as though I had to conform to peoples expectations of who they wanted me to be, I felt less agitated, more fulfilled and more loving of the universe and what it had to offer despite the baby hurdles it took to reach this point.
7.I felt confident in my own skin! I chopped my hair off into a pixie cut and learnt how to spend less time getting ready, and worrying about my appearance. I am not going to say it was easy, and there were tears. However I have always been a firm believer that beauty is whats inside and never whats on the outside, I needed to experience it and what better way than to part with what I groomed the most? my hair! I would spend over an hour a day on straightening my hair, and making sure no weather condition would make it frizz. Cutting my hair off taught me to love my curls and not to associate straight hair with what my perception of beauty is!
8. LET IT GO! There is nothing I can do to take back my traumatic experience last year, no amount of pain I have felt by the abuse inflicted on me, or the losses I suffered, but I know one thing for sure and that is that I never let it define me, or break me. I used the last 15 months to be strong, to mend and to learn to forgive and trust again. None of this could have happened without the love and support of my loved ones. As this year comes to an end, I want everyone who reads this to walk away with one lesson, and that is to think of others, others who do not have the love, support and resources that everyone should have. We all have our story, our experiences and that what has shaped us in the way we deal with others, behave and think.
When I think of the new year, I think of positive changes, accomplishing goals, loving more, eating better, and working on self development and being the best possible version of myself!
I am wishing you a all a Happy & Healthy & Loving New Years! xo
What are your 2017 Reflections? Tell me <3